sad.

last night i talked and waved my hands in my sleep.

mag said i was saying "ta lei"(beat you) lots of time and was sweating heavily.

that was weird..

all i can remember about my dream was:

- running around

- shopping mall

- my cousin's family. but he wasn't around.

funny..come to think about it..maybe it reminded me about the times when i always hang out at their place. my aunt always bring us to shopping malls and we always have alot of fun together. sigh..wat to do...life goes on..

i managed to talk to jason(eddie's younger bro) and he was handling it well. he said the parents are doing okay too. that is a relief. time sure passes us so bloody quickly..i used to manja jason alot..now he is like all grown up.

my cousin, choy, even told me that jason and derek told him not to be sad because of his brother's passing and said eddie wouldn't want to see us sad and would hope that we all appreciate life more...i was like..wow..i can't even be that strong..sigh..

rest in peace eddie. you'll remain in our hearts.

goodbye, eddie lee chee loong.

eddie, you will be greatly missed.

only 22. life is just too short.

dear cousin, i won't be able to bully you anymore.

i'll miss your silliness - like when u burnt your face with the kuih kapit maker. when i farted on your face and you cried. when choy, derek, jason and i used to gang up on you, and your mom always believed us. all the fun times in genting highlands. all the fooling around at the factory.

will remember the good times always.

sorry i can't see you off. sorry.

see you "gou low".