Thursday, August 31, 2006

Photos! More to come!

While I'm waiting for photos from the UMSA Ball from all my beloved friends, I will share some photos that I have.

I used to post so many photos up on my blog. I realized that my blog has become sort of a sad and boring place already. All the recent post are all sad, boring and imageless. So now I will light it up again with pictures!!

Last Saturday was Zaf's birthday! This stupid girl, got all down because she cannot celebrate with her family. I undestand that. But birthdays are meant to be celebrated! This girl keep on saying what for celebrate? No need lar...trouble people only. Bla...bla..bla...

Instead we threw her a surprise birthday party. Thanks to the mastermind Ms. Chong.


The girls.

The girls got a little bit....ummm..I don't know what to say...crazy?! Maybe it is just Mag's influence.

Everyone trying to kiss the birthday girl!

I find this picture so beautiful. So much laughter and joy. Hope you enjoyed your birthday Zaf!

Thank you for everything, Zaf. *wink* You're the greatest!

Not forgetting, Merdeka!! Merdeka!! and first day of Spring tomorrow. Wooohooweee!



Monday, August 28, 2006

Fairy Tale Ending

Feelin like crap now...

Didn't go to work today, just couldn't...do it. Woke up feeling damn dizzy. Could only call in sick.

I even have body aches. My right biceps are pretty sore...stupid 8kg iMac. Currently since I woke up, all the songs that have been playing are sad songs...my comp has its mind of its own. -_-"

And...guess what? Recently I felt my pants are getting abit loose, so I weighed me self today and I was right. I'm 52kgs...from 55kgs..gosh..don't even know when and why I lost weight.

Glad the ball went well...could have been better, but what is done is done. Great time and sweet memories. Will blog more when I recover!

Nitey nite. Sweet Dreams.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Loved Ones

It's already 5 years now. It's pretty fast how time flies huh...I was just reading Julia's and Ad's blog.

Been 5 years since their dad past away. Didn't realized it was that long already. I knew this fellas since way back in Standard 4 and we have been close friends ever since. I remember we used to have so many sleep-overs at their house together with Chong as well. In fact I will be surprise if someone in our group of friends have never ever overnight at their house. It is impossible. Their house is like so near to school. It became like the headquaters for all of us. Parties, meetings, chillin out and just about anything and everything.

Besides the point, I hardly know uncle. From what I see and remember, he was a kind and gentle man. A good father and a husband, I must say. I never see him got angry at Chris, Ad or Julia before. Eventhough I stay so freaking often at their place. Come to think of it...I no home to go back too ar? Paiseh man...I remember that he mentioned to Ad and Chris that I remind him of mighty mouse. I don't know why but it's something I can clearly remember. Sighh...

As time goes by, I've been to a few more funerals of my friend's parents. It is really sad. I do not know how can they be so strong. If I were in their shoes, I would just break down. Sigh... anyhows it is really sad when your loved one past away. It is something that I do not wish upon others or to myself. I am glad and thankful that my parents are still around with me. If I can, I never want them to go away. But I guess it is just part of growing up, it's just life. Sooner or later the day will come for me and you. Remember our parents are getting older and they won't be here forever.

Till that day, cherish them, treat them well, get to know them better and tell them how much you appreciate and love them. Before it's too late, my friend.

I wanna go home now...*cries*

*apologies if i offend/upset anyone*

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

I went to bed early

Wow..it's amazing that I went to bed yesterday at 10pm...

My body just couldn't take it anymore...it just shuts down...

The sleep I had was simply amazing..it felt so long...I even woke up around 5am just to check that I did not overslept. =P

I didn't dream much though. But the night before was horrible. The dream I had was damn weird. I dreamt I was at the ball. Waiting and preparing myself to ask someone to dance. Then it jump to some flowers I need to buy, then half of the ppl at the ball left for a gang fight because of someone messing with another guy's girl, then I was in the South at a farm with really big strong wild sheeps that in the end took my aunt's life. Damn sad...and then I just woke up.

Anyways...just wanted to let it out because they say when you let it out, the dream won't come true. So just to be on the safe side. =)

I got a lil sorethroat and cough already...soon flu...and hopefully not fever!!! Back to work now...*Damn slack*

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Too busy, Too Tired, Soon Too Sick..


Look it is already Sunday and I still havent checked my mail..piling up already..

Union of Malaysian Students in Auckland(UMSA) is having their annual ball this Sunday and the preparations are taking up most of my time. I'm involved in the skit, video and some music. This weekend was a little quieter but I still manage to squeeze the most out of it.

Despite having skit practices on Friday right after work, I went to Jet's birthday at some club. The theme of the night was the 80's. It was pretty fun to finally catch up with the people I used to hang out while I was staying in Wellesley Student Apartments. You know lar....I work 5 days like that ...can't seem to find the time...damn... I always come out with all these excuses only. Must change, must change. *note to myself*

Anyway ..after spending like 2hours there, I headed home as I was dead tired! As it was a Friday night, I didn't want to just go to bed so early, so I decided to go online and chit chat abit..hehehe. Then at around 2 am I got this msg from Mag. She asked whether I was sleeping or not. I said not yet when I was practically falling asleep on my chair yet again. She was in town and then she said wanna hang out or not. As it is a friday night and I'm so stubborn to just go to bed and get some rest, I said yes! So we just hang out and chit chat. We even went and get coffee and met Jo, Ferren, Daniel & Carmen.

The night or rather the day did not end there as we chit chatted until like 7 am...padan muka for me for not wanting to sleep early. Mag left for home but something happened. As she was driving home, she patah balik twice back to my place because her contacts fell off and she couldn't drive home. She has work at 9am somemore. So I drove her back all the way to her house which is situated in Henderson("new parnell" that is what she says) Grabbed her glasses and she drove me back to the city. After so much talking, travelling and exhaustion, we even decided to grab breakfast at McD.

After eating breakfast she headed home and I dive right into bed. That was like 9am. At 11.15am, I woke up and headed straight out for the video shoot for the ball skit with Daniel, David, Jasmine in Albert park. We spent about 2 hours shooting the video and then headed back home. There was so many stares as we were shooting in the park. Occassionaly I tend to space out and lose my thoughts due to sleepiness and tiredness. Right after the shoot, we decided to go for soccer as the weather was not going to rain and it was not cold.

Haven't had so much fun playing soccer for a long long time. I don't mean that I usually don't have fun. But today was extra fun. Small group today but it was fun definately. Headed back home after 2 hours of soccer. Got back, shower, and KO straight away. I was so tired that I didn't want to get out of bed. I wanted to sleep till the next morning. But I couldn't as I offered to help paint the props for the skit at David's place. Finished all the painting at around 1am, went home, did some of the editing for the video we shot on Saturday and went to bed like 4 am as I was again falling asleep in front of the computer. The only thing that was keeping me awake was Zaf's msn msgs...lol...

The result of not enough rest is that when I woke up this morning, I have a terrible sore throat. It really sucks to be getting sick now. As I know when I get sore throat, I will then get cough/flu and then hopefully not, fever. But being the playful, stubborn me that cannot turn down the offer to play and have fun..woke up at 11am and went for soccer at YMCA with Danielx2, Josh, Danny, Jeremy, Mitch and Wei Bian. The game was pretty fun as well as we had something to fight for. Before we kicked off the game, we made a bet. The losers will buy drinks for the winners. Guess which team won? OF course my team ! LOL....we played until the score was like 20 - 16. Remember....after like 2 hours. Crazy! Me and Daniel rushed to Wellesley for another skit practice with the whole committee.

So...that's about it from me now. As I am feeling so tired now, but I can't sleep yet cause I haven't had dinner and I need to work on the video. The ball is like 6 days away!!! Apologize for the long long entry.

Before I go, I wanna say go listen to this song. Baz Lurhman - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen). I am sure that you have heard of this song before but I never knew the lyrics are so encouraging and so nice. It is like advices on life. How to live life and be a good person. Don't worry so much and make the most of it. So motivating, positive and so encouraging!

Okay okay...I am making you bored already. Apologize again for the super long entry...=P

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Uncle Darren

No. I am not that old yet...some of you think otherwise...STOP LAUGHIN!

I am going to be uncle darren again! About 9 times already...and counting because my second brother is going be a dad soon! Congrats bro!! I am damn happy to hear it from you.

My bro told me over msn:
7:33:26 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: so by any chance that ur coming back home
7:34:04 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: i want to
7:34:14 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: dont know when ..see how my visa goes
7:34:23 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: is everyone healthy and good at home?
7:35:05 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: i am goin to be father aledi......
7:35:11 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: oh really ?!!
7:35:15 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: congratsS!!!!
7:35:22 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: how many more months?
7:35:23 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: thanx
7:35:29 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: tell me earlier mar!
7:35:39 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: around 4mths
7:35:43 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: icic
7:35:44 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: good good
7:35:50 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: congrats!
7:35:52 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: happy for u
7:36:21 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: estimate to due on early Feb
7:37:42 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: cool ..
7:37:51 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: as long not feb 29
7:37:55 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: hehee
7:38:08 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: no lah
7:38:39 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: good also......no need to celebrate so many time
7:38:42 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: hahaha
7:38:45 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: save on presents

I can't say how happy I am for him. But one thing I don't get it is...I must be the last to know!! 4 more months due and now only I know?!! Isshhhhh....but still, I am happy!

We continued talking again and it felt a lil weird:

8:01:14 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: how bout u?........had ur dinner aledi?
8:01:38 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: yeah i had already
8:01:45 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: now sort of relaxing
8:03:22 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: didn't go out for dating ah????hehehe
8:03:50 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: me dating?
8:03:56 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: no lar...single..
8:04:32 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: go find......a maori girl lah
8:06:13 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: LOL
8:06:14 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: hahaha
8:06:18 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: then can stay here forever
8:06:23 PM tattered9@hotmail.com: got benefits somemore
8:06:41 PM randy_tjk@yahoo.com: yalah

you see, my family isn't the really close knitted kind. we have like some code one...we aren't that close to each other, but we sort of understand each other without saying it. we just do I guess? so it was weird when he asked me "didn't go out for dating ah????hehehe"...cause I never ask him like how he met my sis in law...how long they have been together and all...but I do want to know. I know my family members well but not that well. you get what I mean? but I guess it is not too late...everyone got to start somewhere right?

thank you x 10000 for ppl who worried about me. I am perfectly fine! *wink*. don't take me seriously la k? I talk nonsense only!

that includes you zaf! terima kasih..she shared this with me:

joy is not in things; it is in us - richard wagner-
everyday brings a chance to live free of regret and with as much joy, fun and laughter as u can stand -oprah-
the best way 2 cheer urself is 2 cheer sumbody else up -mark twain-

*big wide smile*

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

A good day and a bad day

you'll know it's a good day when ...

you wake up feeling fresh and energized..
having breakfast before you go to work..
as you step outside the sun shines down on you..
it feels like the first day of work again..
the eagerness, the joy..
nothing to worry, nothing to care..
everything is perfect..

but today is not it.

lack of sleep..
fallin asleep at work..
not much left in me..
busy with stuff for this two weeks..
visa no news yet..
keep thinkin of someone..

even if i hear your name also i already feel alive. took a long walk after meeting today..walked till britomart. sudden urge for indian food. but I forgot that it was already like 9pm. foodcourts are closing. walked all the way back an just had BK accompanied by 2 hours of prison break.

better be in bed now...if not, it will be another bad day at work. hope you guys have a better week than me. won't be bloggin that often for this and next week.

hope you have a good day!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Asal Emo?

OHMYFREAKINGGOD...

I feel so, so, so....emo! My mind is dead right now but my body is still up and running...


I don't know why I am still awake when I should already be in bed right now. Fell asleep on the chair infront of the computer again...


Just one of those days again. When you feel the loneliness, aimlessness, the I couldn't careless attitude, no drive or motivation to do anything at all...


What is happening to me?! I guess this is a sign of getting old...


Maybe? Maybe not...


I think all I need is someone to smack me so hard that I....I....I can't even think what I wanted to say already...


SIGH
.SIGH.sigh.sigh...


All I can do now is go to bed, have a sweet dream about someone and wake up the next morning wishing and hoping that I could be the person I always wanted to be and do the things I always wanted to do. And maybe soon enough
I'll be that happy, crazy, optimistic boy again.


Alright..didn't mean to scare anyone...no worries...just the other side of me speaking. Darren is alive, well and kicking. He'll be back tomorrow. Promise! =)
By the way, I'm currently waiting for my visa extension. Mine expires on 18 August 2006. Wish me luck!

Monday, August 07, 2006

I'm so so should be in bed already..

I'm so dead tomorrow. It's 2.29am and I need to wake up at 7.30am for work!! I am pretty much awake after a 4 - 5 hours of so called "napping" after one of my weekly therapy/relaxation sports weekend.

Sucked that Saturday rained the whole day. Didn't make me feel any better after Friday was a little bit of a sad day for me. Thank god Previn and David Chan invited me on a guy's day out. LOL...It was better than staying at home on a cold and wet day. I might have just died on my bed.


Although I got my socks and shoes wet, we actually.... ahermm.... erm... went for ... erm... window shopping.. We look for some working clothes, shoes, perfume, cameras and cellphones. End up didn't buy anything at all. We then went to Hulucat for drinks. I tell you...the eggpudding milk tea there is the best...as if I've tried any other eggpudding milk tea anywhere else. -_-" A little sweet for me but it is damn good. The day was so wet, cold and gloomy, I even felt asleep in Hulucat. Damn..all the extra energy all wasted just like that. Even more exhausting then playing sports non stop for like 8 hours straight. Anyway ended the night having dinner at Sapor@Dominion Road..that was probably the only thing that made my day better. Food...yumm...

Changed David Chan's wallpaper to my beautiful picture. Lol...he must have nightmares!

Today, was late for Super Sport Sunday...due to my ever trustable phone that didn't wake me up. Thanks to Zaf's sms..I woke up. *Phew* If not I would even feel shittier....I hate being late to anything. I don't mind waiting for people, cause I like waiting but I never like to be late. I feel it is so bad and rude to make others wait for me. Another usual day today, played netball, soccer and volleyball. It was as usual that I enjoyed the sports and especially the company. Really get to know each and everyone better after the Bersatu games. It is amazing actually. Simply great. Especially....nvm...I mean can joke now, laugh and tease around. So I could not ask for more really.

Okay okay...talking nonsense now..cause it is 3 freaking AM!! Nitey nite world. Hope Mr. Sun comes out soon. Right Zaf? Right Shermayne? Beautiful week ahead to everyone!

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Don't Wait

I'm so full now. Just went yum char with Rachel's uncle and aunty at Dynasty up the street. Yum..Yum..

Current mood..is like the weather. Gloomy...

Why?

1) No soccer because it will be real wet and muddy if we play today.
2) I was too late for something I wanted to do and really hoping for. But I guess I deserved it. Too slow...too slow...dammit..

Moral of the story is:

Don't wait, don't take your own sweet time in doing things. Set your mind and just go for it. Consequences worry later. Life is like the weather. So unpredictable...but it is exciting!

But still debating lar...should play or not..anyways got full day of sports tomorrow for me. So...
...

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

What is L.O.V.E?

I got this email from a friend. It is just so so cute and sweet. I have to share it with you guys. Especially those who are fallin in and out of love...enjoy...


"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

Rebecca- age 8


"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."

Billy - age 4


"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

Karl - age 5


"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

Chrissy - age 6


"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

Terri - age 4


"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

Danny - age 7


"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"

Emily - age 8


"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

Bobby - age 7


"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"

Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)


"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

Noelle - age 7


"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

Tommy - age 6


"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

Cindy - age 8


"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

Clare - age 6


"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."

Elaine-age 5


"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt ."

Chris - age 7


"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

Mary Ann - age 4


"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

(Maybe she just teasing her sis)

Lauren - age 4


"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)

Karen - age 7


"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."

Jessica - age 8


And the final one -Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.
The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,

"Nothing, I just helped him cry"

In L.O.V.E now?

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

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